Well well... nothing really special or extraordinary.
I'm pretty sad about not posting here anymore, nor doing 3D (I don't even open trueSpace since march or april, I guess...). I feel like disappoint some people here, specially the other Leon that gave me the Messiah and I didn't get it, I couldn't because I'm not going to use... so would be better giving it back if possible, then he can do whatever he wants (maybe give to someone else).
I don't feel sad or bad about being away of 3D, it's not a priority as it was. Although it's delightful as always, I get on some other objectives, or the lack of them. I'm more into reading books I guess, I should even read more. Also I can say that maybe music are pretty important now, even being talentless, I do it more for myself.
I'm also unproductive as I don't work, just study and so... Some existential questions (or crisis as some would say) inherent to the adolescence (I guess...), and that's what have been consuming much of my thinking lately, but that's cool, considering I won't have it again, I must enjoy the ~moment~.
Anyway, I feel consumerist (in the way of consuming content, not the "buying things" consumerism) and that makes me a little worthless, like, doing nothing, creating nothing. And most of what I create now is useless and have no impact anyway, things of bad quality also, I don't do anything of a "better quality" in a longtime.
I know this last paragraph might sound depressive, but I don't feel depressed at all, just saying the reality. I have other things to bother about, maybe more futile and restrict things, but at least keeps me away from those other questions. Yeah, I read some D. Hume and Nietzsche.
Also Voltaire.
and Orwell.
Don't forget those XV, XVI classics as Maquiavel, T. More and so.
That's all haha.
